and your beliefs.
my beliefs were evolving. i didn't believe that the world was created in 144 hours and the creator rested for 24 hours after that. but i believed in a creator. i believed that some of the torah was probably from god and that thinking about god is beneficial for the human soul.
you don't believe in that anymore?
sometimes i think that for everyone there is some exercise of opposite that would be helpful. for one day all those god obsessed people have to think about something else other than god and all god denying people have to focus on the gestalt of oneness of creation, or whatever is closest in their worldview to the oneness of the creator. i don't think there is a specific recipe that is one size fit all.